I FEEL U, STILL
I see language as my play ground
I use adjectives and pronouns to play around
I feel you still
How many ways can I say I feel you still
Don’t worry about that
Just so you know
I’m about
If you you ever need me it’s a shout
Don’t know you’re motive but there’s a motive that I can go with
And we should flow with
Don’t think think you know this but I’m exposing much more
Growing up where I grew up you were told you could be much more
But it’s just all in the training
In broader society
Etiquette and eloquence is the president
In order to be recieved in the most favourable manner
You must conform my darling
Fall into place
Speak with rigour this and speak properly
And learn to do so with grace
But what is it to ‘speak properly’
It’s all a game we play and a game you wanna win
And we do so by code switching
We all do it
I know when I’m at work
I know when I’m at home
I know when I’m with friends
I know when I’m alone
We’re different people to different people and that’s fine
We’re not gonna be the same all the time
But at some point I started to take pride in deception
And though I love language
I see language as my play ground
I use adjectives and pronouns to play around
I felt like I was winning the game
Like
Really winning the game
Don’t know if you know the rules but in order to win
What I had to do was shed my skin and the flesh I was born in
And I did so with ease and learnt to navigate spaces where people didn’t sound like me
Rack up points then leave
And I aimed to please
Because this is how I was taught to win
Shapeshifting, speak switching smile make sure your teeth glisten and please pretend to care and above all beware
Because their watching, and they notice
Don’t slip up
Stay focused
No mistake goes unnoticed even when they don’t show it
And they want to see you slip
But that’s a bit dramatic
Because in practice it’s just static
It’s just noise
Language is just noise and very one is talking all the time
Shut up!
Just shuttup !
Words are neutral.
Not words are real or fake
Every word is a thing that a person made
And the aim is to communicate
And I’m not just talking transferring practical information
Words include framing
So I know although I can say ‘I understand’
And I’m I’m here to lend a helping hand
I’d rather say ‘I feel u still’ because I got you
And right now I don’t care about anyone that’s not me and not you
Because out of all the people in this world you’re in my top 2
And your not 2
So come thru
we’ll cut thru all the noise and politics
And keep it simple, and just so you know
with me
Always and forever
you have a home